It’s only when you get there that the reverence for what they love hits home, the flag a simple symbol of what any country stands up for, I think of Palestine or the difference between North and South in Ireland make more sense attached to the top of a bonfire than around the shoulders of an Italian football supporter standing in the smoke of a flared stadium. The flag of America is different. I was in Philadelphia to see balloons and flags, It makes me happy to take photos of balloons and flags, I don’t know why, I just think they’re striking and represent so much fake happiness and do such a job in convincing people that much of this happiness exists but it actually doesn’t, well it does but momentarily, sort of in a flash.
The balloon with such herald and promise, if it doesn’t have helium or that silver glaze seems to be actually the opposite of delirium and more realistically whispers “Here listen, what you thought was discounted inside is full price” so although nostalgic and floating away into a sky day with some child weeping sadly, it’s all talk and no walk with balloons I feel.
Although being wary of comparing flags and balloons, flags are much laden down, history and blood in most cases hard to ignore they have such meaning, the colours they pick stand alone and say so much more about why a country, especially America, exists. What happened in the process of that journey to existence? a flag seems to ask for reverence. I see a flag in America and well up, odd seeing as I’m Irish and will never probably gain residency in the states [I'd love to be an Ice Road Trucker though] so to see a flag in America is like the highest reminder that you’re in a place that fought tooth and nail to get those stars and stripes and also the freedom to buy fast food at regular intervals co-incidentally where they display numerous balloons. The flag does so much Balloons say so much too but theres an anti climax – Sorry but It’s balloons or flags for me these cold walking days. What else is there?
Hell bent on making inways
Trying to be brave
I missed a perfect chance to
save my only day
Walked away and sorry
I couldn’t stop myself
I’ve turned a thing a caustic
And killed everything.
Fall down fall down around
Pick up pick up the sound
At last Its found you down
Won’t turn until aloud.
My blind my eye can cry
Which day burns truth and lies
For time and bind again
It’s me and you the ties.
It’s not easy to write, it’s not easy to write work that’s important for a good reason. Sometimes you have to stop and I have for a while to take a look at other ways of working. Ways that I hope will eventually bear down on what I write and how it helps to define what I might do in the future. That might mean buy a dog. Organise a set of talks or Dj’s, It might mean go to a festival and it also might mean take a series of acting classes. I might not eat so much sugar as i used to but nonetheless do things outside the zone of easy. All help define the outcome of what might be creativity. For me mind, not you, I’m just telling you out straight, not hiding. it might help.
Honestly, say it honestly and be straight be trustworthy in all of the selfishness to be kind enough to learn from those others you mightn’t get on with but yet learn off. Do it straight and true and somehow it’ll give.
Yes even though it has gone deathly quiet around here, I’ve been sleeping better, you remember the deal here right? Still It don’t mean I’m blind – I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t (well maybe you would) believe.
Not even a real word, I have been sleeping better and apon reflection have been neglecting this blog a little but then I seen two things today in the sunshine and waiting on a friend for a big meeting that made me think. Don’t just put these up on Tumblr, write again, talk to yourself about it and outside of the slight madness, write things down.
The suns back in Dublin and how quick the heat defers the moaning / Whining. I start a street art tour on Sunday and the weathers due to be nice, nice.
Sometimes flowers in the right place at the right time can change your day. Simple beauties.